My whole life was a lie

I leaned to my family expecting support, and what I got was just them expecting me to be someone I never was

They see "future" in me, not a human with their own needs

They think they know what I should spend my energy on, and they think that me crying is not an excuse for me "not doing my work", just me being "in my hole" and "doing nothing"

I feel like I'm a slave for them or something

Or just "overreacting", ofc /s

Maybe it's true, but why am I so incapable of doing whatever they ask/demand me to do?

I want to run, not sure where or how

May I just not wake up?

Please?

@SunCat What the hell is that

Do you have resources where you live? Transgender groups, medical care (for your depression)? Do you need resources?

@redbookworm
I live in Russia, and I have no idea tbh

@redbookworm
There is one non-lgbt therapist I kinda know about, and sometimes talk with them, but they haven't been too much help tbh

@SunCat @redbookworm I'd add Autistic community support as well, especially if crying is part of shutdowns or meltdowns